Mental health : the obsession of performing

This morning I got my first exam to have my driver license, I told to everyone that It will happen today because I was very excited ! Yesterday, I went to bed early to have a good night and I wake up at 6 am to have a clear mind, I took my matcha first, to have all benefits for my body and obviously I ate vegetables and good protein to don’t have the insulin spike, I got myself ready by my outfit, the way I fix my hair, all of this in a goal to be able to be my best, neutral and make a good impression. Indeed, I was ready, I studied all questions and most of all I felt ready. Anyway, the moments came and honestly I was stressed but not so much I just wanted to do my best and here is the point ; I did, I really did the best of what I could give. But I made a mistake based on the context the pressure and a plenty of others factors that I couldn’t control. So I continued anyway, to try to do my best for the rest of the time knowing I didn’t passed but keeping at least my mind clear and hoping that I will get some points more to pass it faster after The fact is that I failed second time, it was so so a shaming and I just felt so bad at this point, my eyes were watering so much… When it was over I left the car, just went away from the place, called my mom and let it go, all regrets, all mistakes, I just felt miserable… The things is that I understood that it wasn’t all my fault and I couldn’t change the past, the only thing that I can do is to do not let this bad morning ruin my day, my week and my brain so here is why I wrote this text to told you that we live in a society where people are obsessed with performance (including me), where everyone try to be THE first, THE best and when we failed we don’t realize how much pressure we put on ourselves and the fact that we have all the time to accomplish what we want to do in our lives. On social media we sees people that have the dream life, accomplishes in a year what others people will achieve in a lifetime. This is just disconnecting our self of the normality , we are human not robots, we feel, we think, we eat, we sleep, we do sh*t sometimes but all of that is normal and healthy !